Remembering
Today is the National Day of Miscarriage and Infant Loss.
We count ourselves an incredibly blessed family. God's tender mercies and huge provision on our lives is overwhelming. We celebrate the wonder and miracle of parenting four incredibly unique, beautiful, amazing children here on earth.
But, the truth is, we are parents of five. Samuel is our son whose place is right smack in the middle of Nathan and Caleb. We miscarried Samuel eight years ago.
While the heartache is no longer so raw, we still miss him every day. I find myself catching glimpses of Caleb and Nathan playing together and I can picture him in the middle of the mix. Those thoughts make me smile.
We trust and completely accept God's plan for our lives but today, I just want to stop and remember Samuel. I want to say his name out loud. It want to confirm his existence and the huge impact his short earthly life had on mine. I am grateful for the ways in which he changed me and I am looking forward to the day I will hold him in heaven.
I love you Samuel. xoxoxo - Mom
2 comments:
I remember when you did this page. Little Samuel has changed you and it is great to see you remembering him in this way. Love ya.
oh wow! i had no idea a day in this honor existed. i also had a miscarriage before katelyn. such a sad and emotional time. hugs to you!
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